A Personal Message
Dear Fellow Travelers,
It has been an interesting journey for me with the Human Design System. Only a few of you probably recognize the significance of a material result from the evolution in my old friend and long-time Human Design partner, Chaitanyo, who, I am glad to report, is doing extremely well in his next life stage beyond being a graphic designer. He’s on his path, impassioned. It is so evident how much healthier it is when someone is connected to one’s purpose!
For my part, I have felt for a long time that he had to come to the end of doing what I wanted with Human Design, but the mechanism of habit and conditioning took a longer time to unwind and fade. Each step on the path was taking its own time.
This last quarter has been significant in my experiential unfolding of what it means to not be conditioned by Chaitanyo. I have entered into a state of not doing. Without his 45 in the Throat to my 21 in the Heart center, I did not feel compelled to push myself any further than I already had for the last decades.
In fact, it felt to me that my education in Human Design really matured when I finally recognized what it meant to be conditioned and to act from energy that was not always a beneficial form of being conditioned. This is actually very important to realize, to identify what the difference is when conditioning is loving and supportive versus when it pushes one.
That relationship brought me to a profound understanding and mastery of Human Design. For all those years that I suffered its limitations, I am rewarded and blessed with a profound sense of what my purpose on this planet is and what my role in the Human Design community is.
These last months have been unexpectedly peaceful that I don’t feel to force myself, to slog my wares, to figure out how to make money. It’s not up to me; it has never been up to me, and my main interest is in healing my blessed and beloved body.
Defending myself against the Jovian Goliath has taken a toll on me. I recognize this stress, and though I am mentally strong, I didn’t understand how high a price I was paying with my undefined Sacral and Heart centers. Though my body doesn’t function well, I still feel joyous. The mastery in my work is exhilarating, while the breakdown in my body has been and is a huge teacher for me to finally understand the Sacral center.
In the recent weeks, I’ve been thinking about how to recast the age old story of my relationship with Ra. In the past, I have felt chastised for not being respectful of my teacher, or defensive about my right to practice without his permission. My god, the breath I have wasted in arguments about this! The energy I have consumed in trying to set the record straight! The time used to ask people not to inform me of all their Jovian knowledge.
In the last months when I gave readings or otherwise just talked with people with a smattering of indoctrinating terms and slogans, it gets starkly evident how Ra is able to successfully create memes, viruses of the mind, where people are convinced that type and profile, crosses, etc. are Human Design. No, no, no, dear friends, that’s Ra and his interpretation. He’s confusing you by informing that he is the only one who can authorize its use and that his interpretation came with the revelation.
That’s partly why I’ve been promoting the revelation story (soon to be posted on the home page at www.humandesignsystem.com), because everything you need to use Human Design is in the revelation and you don’t need anyone’s permission to use it.
If you use types, that’s Ra’s. I just did a YouTube video on why I don’t use types for this reason. I feel just bombarded with this generalization format and would be grateful to everyone if, when talking with me, you see what happens when you just drop those memes, and memes they are. Brainwashing in a way. Mind habits that prevent you from seeing directly. If you are a professional and haven’t paid him for the right to use, think long and hard about this infringement.
See the video here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4Ys4PrGKnE
The real buttons, though, have to be, strategy and authority. Please, guys, you don’t need a strategy to live your life. It’s consciousness. And you don’t need Ra telling you what your authority should be. You should be your own authority. Kindness and love are the path of the golden way of the Tao.
But the greatest deception of all has got to be “Deconditioning the Not Self.” This one is so tricky. Here are its flaws: Deconditioning - Assumes that you can un-do the habitual patterns of being conditioned. It’s a re-conditioned more than anything else. You need to learn to stay open in those undefined centers, not label them the Not Self so that you can justify your unconsciousness and bad habits. Don’t wall yourself off from what life is bringing you to learn by believing that you have no responsibility; that it’s your Not Self. 
Well, I could go on and on, and that’s certainly the nature of my mind to argue my case, but I can’t type well any longer (my left hand gets weak), so I’m taking that as the sign to stop writing.
See my blog posting here: www.humandesignsystem.com/blog. |
